Difficult

I know that I am very lucky.  Many people with my condition are home bound, however it is hard to have so little energy and watch other people just move without thinking.  Just standing up is difficult.  I have to plan my life around how long something might take and whether I can get through it.  I try very hard not to let others see this but sometimes it is difficult.  The worst part is that my daughter may never know the mom who  could keep up with her.  I have to remember that the most important part is that I am here.  So much of my life I was constantly on the go and maybe a higher power is using this to slow me down and force me to take my time.  I will try to not be difficult and just appreciate what I have.