Dentist

Hate 'em! I think in a past life I was either buried alive or hung. because I absolutely can not take people or things close to my head and necklaces or things around my neck really bother me. So the dentist, beside causing pain when picking at my teeth also makes me feel claustrophobic. Just to demonstrate how bad a problem I have with this, I had my first panic attack when the orthodontist was trying to put on my braces. They put this thing in my mouth to hold my tongue down and that was it. Also, everytime I get a facial (which I don't do often) I have to take a deep breath and think about other things especially when they put that warm towel over my face covering everything but my nose. In the cold light of day, all of this seems really crazy up until I have the dental hygenist leaning over me. Well, I made it through a cleaning today but sometime this year they will have to put implants in so I will be a real basket case. Another odd thing you now know about me!

Busy

Been kind of busy over the last week. Work has been a nightmare so have not had alot of time nor energy to blog. Not much going on except for the start again of the needles and medicine. I am now on day 6 of the new cycle making it day 3 of needles again. Another month so again we send our hopes upward. Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Infertilty Word for the Week - 2

Hysterosalpingogram (HSG)

A special x-ray procedure that is performed to determine if the fallopian tubes are open or if uterine abnormalities exist.

Had this one done about 5 years ago! One of the most painful things I have ever had done in my life. Let me tell you there is nothing like laying on a cold slab while someone places fluids and other lovely items in areas you don't want anyone touching except on a good day.

Try not to think about this one too long!

Race Weekend

Well the one good thing about this weekend was that Nascar starting racing again. Those of you who know me, know that I am a race fan. My sister (see pic of her in the Towers at Talladega) and I are charter members of the Nascar Members Club and have missed very few races at Talladega in the last 5 years. So the Daytona 500 was this weekend and we got together to be lazy and watch the race. All in all it was a pretty slow race and our favorite driver #8 finished 8th so we will be happy with it and move on. We hope that we have now brought Ami into the fold because she stopped by and of course we forced her to watch the race with us. Maybe she learned some new words - like bump drafting! Hope all of you had a good weekend and heres hoping that I will be in a better mood tomorrow than I was today!

It Really Sucks!

Yep today I had my pregnancy test. "Mrs. Perry we are sorry to tell you but the test was negative." Boy, am I tired of hearing that. I am sad again but mainly mad. Mad because everyday I did the shots and took the strange pills. Mad because everyday I gradually had more and more pregnancy symptoms and it was all for nothing yet again! So all in all today really sucks but you have to move on.

Birthday

For those of you who do not already know today is my birthday. I am now officially in the range of so old that if I do get pregnant they will worry about complications - the great age of 36. Anyway, it has been a good birthday and I think mainly because this year I had no expectations that it would be any different than any other day. And actually today I was a little surprised. More people wished me happy birthday, some I did not even know knew it was my birthday. My friend Kristy bought me lunch and I had no clue she was going to do it. For the first time, I did not expect great things from Scott. He is just not the romantic and maybe I have learned to accept it. Thanks to everyone who thought of me today and know that I appreciated it greatly. Birthdays to me are more important than even Christmas because they are your own special day and should be cherished.

Weekend

Out of town this weekend in KY. I am worn out. We drove 5 hours Friday afternoon in the snow. Spent a couple hours driving around on Saturday and then another 5 hours back on Sunday. So no rest. I had major headache on Saturday and because I could be pregnant I had to watch what I took. Sunday was no better. I had stomach pains most of that day and then the lovely weekend ended with a major stress. After unpacking and getting ready to rest, I was walking up my stairs, tripped and fell on my stomach. That was the end. I just lost it and sat in the floor and cried. I think that I am ok but it was all in all a really long and stressful weekend. So if you see me at work and I am smiling, it is all a mirage!

Infertilty Word for the Week

Since I am here to keep you informed and help you learn about infertility. Tonight I will institute the word of the week to give you some insight into my world.

This Week's Word is Progesterone - Progesterone acts directly on the lining of the uterus to enhance its integrity. This helps prevent uterine contractions and bleeding. It is indicated for a history of spontaneous miscarriages, or episodes of bleeding during pregnancy. It is administered by intramuscular injection, vaginal suppository or vaginal capsule. Progesterone support is routinely prescribed after several types of infertility treatment, such as IVF and gonadotropin therapy.

All of that means, YUCK!!!!!


Kristy, Keep that smile - your future child will want to see it everyday!

IUI

Well, yesterday was the big day. We had another IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). IUI is similar to Artifical Insemination except that a donor is not needed. They have tested and given me enough medicine to know that it was exactly the right time. So now we wait for a couple of weeks and see if it takes. Meanwhile, I am still taking more pills (again not in the usual way) to help keep progesterone levels up so that if I do get pregnant that I will maintain the pregnancy. So everyone wish us luck that it will work this time.

Feb 4 - Dad's Birthday

Ok, so I know I have been talking alot about my father-in-law recently but it just so happens that this time of the year really brings it up for me. Today would have been his 61st birthday. I really wish he had made it to this one. He almost made it to his 6oth which would have been a real milestone. You see both his father and his uncle died at 59 of heart related issues so he felt that he would never make it to 60 and indeed he didn't. He only missed it by 4 days last year. So now on his birthday, I wish even more that he had made it those 4 days. I really think that if he had he might have made it to this one too. So lesson learned today is to not sell yourself short and to push on and believe. I think he willed his death so we definitely can will our life!

Still More Needles

Day 10 - back to the doctor yet again for more blood work and the ultrasounds that we will now call just UGH (because that's what they are). It appears that my follicles, whatever they are, are not large enough yet so I had to go and get more medicine. That means that tonight I got to give myself another shot and it also means I will continue to do it until Friday when I go back again. So we are looking at another IUI on Sunday or Monday. Maybe this time it will work. Right now I am watching the ballroom championships on PBS. Definitely something I need to do in my next life.