9 Weeks and a Strange Day

Ok, it is 9 weeks today and all of the sudden I feel better. I am hoping that this means we are on the downside of the ugliness and I can start eating voraciously! Things are sounding better to me and I don't get nauseous at the sight of food right now. Yeah! Of course, everyone is telling me that it means I will be having a boy but who knows. What I need now is for the sinus drainage to go away and I might be a happy person again!

Just Feel Better

"I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better"

I found my theme song this morning while listening to the radio on the way to work. Santana and Steven Tyler's "Just Feel Better" - it is truly how I feel right now. I am ready to get out of the haze and into enjoying this pregnancy more. I feel so useless and tired all of the time (besides all of the other crap). We hit 9 weeks tomorrow so I can only hope that it starts getting better. Anyone of you who gets time take a nap for me!

Our Basketball Player

There is one disadvantage to getting so many ultrasounds in the beginning, Scott now knows what size the baby should be every week and he now thinks we have a blooming basketball player all of 8 weeks into this pregnancy. You see, per something he read the normal size for 8 weeks should be 13mm and in week 9 should be 18 mm. Well Baby Perry was 18.6mm at 8 weeks so obviously this child is going to be tall. He is so funny! Of course, I watch too much TLC and immediately think that now we have a giant and will have to deal with those issues. (I have quit watching TLC!) Anyway, I am taking off work tomorrow to chill and get some rest before Scott's mom comes to visit on Saturday. So I will try to get some sonogram pics out here for you.

The fertility doctor has offically released me so I am now scheduling an appointment with my regular OB/GYN so we can continue further down the road of nausea to joy.

By the way, keep those comments coming! I hear you all talk about reading the blog but how do I know unless you leave me a comment.

Love you all!

8 Weeks Today

Well, today we hit 8 weeks. This is a bittersweet milestone for me and a very personal issue that I will not discuss. However, even with all of the constant sickness and throwing up today I decided to find my focus again. It is difficult to see outside your box when the box feels like it is closing in on you. Today I had a moment where I thought about our baby starting school and I could smell the crayons and the paste. I loved school and I look forward to the day even though it will be sad when our baby goes to school and gets to play and learn. I have to remember the joy even through the sickness. I hope soon that I will feel better and can focus better but for now, we take it slow and rest as often as we can. So you guys at work, if you see me with my feet up and my seat reclined just laugh and keep moving.

I Hope to Forget

I can only hope that one day I will forget the misery I feel right now. I am sure that others have it much worse but for me it has been difficult and I can only hope that it will get better when the 3rd trimester starts this time next month. If I could lay around all day I would. Every minute is a struggle to make it through whatever symptom is affecting me at the moment. I don't want to be a cry baby but I am getting very tired. Little Erynn or AJ better be a sweetie and sleep all night when they arrive. When you see Scott tell him that it will get better soon and that hopefully I will not continue to be a basket case much longer. He has been the best during all of this and I would not make it without him.

The Symptoms Keep Coming

One day I am going to truly enjoy this pregnancy but not right now. Sorry, I have not updated in awhile but I am basically miserable and to accomplish any tasks I have to really force myself to do it. To add to the nausea now I have a metallic taste in my mouth so absolutely nothing tastes good much less normal to me. So when I really need to be eating to keep back the nausea all I want to do is avoid food altogether. It is a vicious cycle and I know that I am not really eating healthy right now because nothing seems to help. The most annoying part is being told that it will go away eventually. Sure it will around week 13 when I have buried myself under the covers and decided never to move again. I still have 6 more weeks of this torture. Mike, you are right, this is definitely one I will be holding over the child's head.

Congrats to Katrena who has found out that her second child will be a boy!

(yes, I will get the ultrasound pics out here soon!)

Nausea

24 hours a day
7 days a week
We are in week 6
Nausea all the time
To the point of tears
Because it makes me feel horrible
It could last for another 6 weeks
I want to just stay at home and not move again.

A Little Scare

Well, we had a little scare this weekend. I started spotting some on Sunday night so I called the doctor and they scheduled me to come in today. Everything looks ok they think I may have an infection which they will give me medicines for but otherwise, the baby is fine and we saw a heartbeat today. It is hard to imagine something the size of a piece of rice having a heartbeat much less making me as sick as it does. I am ready for the 2nd trimester because right now it takes effort just to breath. Scott has the pic of our lima bean on his desk. How cute!