Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Could be worse but really?!?


It seems that my medication is not working as well as it did before.  Every day now I have some burning issues. Nothing as bad as without the meds but still there.  I live with my feet out of shoes whenever I can, my hands often feel like they are in gloves and my right ear is attached to a heater.  However, I listen to people who have it much worse and who can not work.  I find it interesting how surprised people are when I explain my pain.  They look at me in shock as if it does not show up.  Those who spend more time with me can tell when my face gets bright red that I am not mad but dealing with the pain.

Right now, my feet are burning in the heels, my right cheek is burning, I have twinges of pain in my legs, back and arms.  That is how I live most of the time.  But you know what, it ain't cancer or something fatal.  What does not kill you makes you stronger.  I have learned alot about myself during this problem.  I am not a complainer.  I really need to be more of one.  I have a high pain tolerance and that is not always good.  I am creative.  I have even put wet cotton balls in my ears during meetings to keep my head and ear from burning too much!  I need more will power.  I need to eat better and exercise more but who doesn't!  Yoga and meditation help but I don't find the time to do them like I should!  I often am surrounded by people with strong personalities.  Somehow it is my destiny to have these people in my life and to handle the stress that they bring to me.

Every day is another step in the journey.  Sometimes those steps are slow and painful and sometimes they are light and joyful!  I hope that if nothing else I present a strong example of how to deal with this pain and keep moving!

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